Poetry by JuanManny

So lately I've been really getting into poetry in so many levels, listening, reading and going to peotry readings when I get a chance. So for the first time I will place them here, for all to see, I like them cuz well I wrote them, so yeah. But if you like, let me know, if you hate, don't discrimate, hahaha. Well here they go:

The Seat of Destiny

Where many are and few arrive

I am there, in the chair where dreams are made

created and established

Dreams dreamt, nightmares wept, destiny set

I am in the seat of my destiny

Hynoptized into a unbelievably situation where unimaginable is possible, even from the chair of elementary where my dream was recess and playground, no homework and nintendo, spaceships and Jedi's, Superman with super-caps and super dogs, who fly as high as the plane in the sky, to imagine a destiny as big as the sky, WHY??

My seat is found in a room where a man on stage speaks and lectures about philosophy and science, aritmetic and theology. I sit where one sat before, to pursue that man's dream. He died and still fulfilled his destiny. To die and say you died able to finish.

Even Martin Luther KIng had followers that said, "I also have a dream, I also have a dream." So absurb to follow, to crazy to speak, to unique to fathom. Still a dream can be as crazy as marshmallows in a field with running chocolate rivers, and Homer Simpson sitting on a couch with Mickey Mouse. Dreams of mine, destiny of mine, journey, mission, vision, setps and valleys, hills and mountains, deep and profound, destiny if found in my seat.

Don't take away, don't hide from me, don't run away, don't let me steal, don't let me slip and fall, don't let me brake my skull. Destiny, o how bittersweet my destiny.

Given a near opportunity to be able to expand on my mind, be more profound on my thoughts and my reasons. Given a chance to exceed and to be seen, given a chance to know and to wonder, to reason and to ponder. ONE near opportunity once robbed from me but never again I say, never again.

Seat empty and mind blocked. Heart turned and tears burned. You see it's my time and my second to arise and lift up my opportunity to the sky and exceed and wonder in my life, to begin on this season and on this reason. To my near opportunity I would like to present to you, my seat of destiny.

Sometimes I wonder if all this will be worth it at the end. If only I can comprehend why so much pain. They told me there was a price to pay, who knew the price was/is so costly.

So I'm back home, it's interesting and complicated. Sad but Happy at the same time. Been really nervous in returning but I know that whatever happens, it happens. I just wish to be different in every way from now on. No more distractions and implications of giving up. I just wish things would go differently. Today starts day 1 of recuperation. The journey begins...

To whom it may concern...

Don't know what to do, where to go, and what to say. Words have had enough. Cloudy Skies can't express, windy storms can't illustrate. Tears have dried, and still not a word. Still no clue. It's like screaming so loud no one can listen. Alone? Empty? Hopeless? And still the silence.

It is said in silence You speak and in cries You respond. Where am I? Waiting... But still don't have a clue what to do. Tired? Weak? Patient? And still not a clue. When I point to You it seems like no one is there. Just can't comprehend You. Some call You, Great, Mighty, Strong, Worthy, Powerful. I called You... but no answer. I wrote but no response. I cried and no rescue. What am I suppose to learn from this pain? My name You gave, and yet I can't ignore. Answer when your ready, I'll still be waiting.

Me.

Wow, seriously sometimes it's really hard to understand some stuff it's really odd. I don't know about anybody else or something but I think it just so happens that we try to think we know what's going on but still we don't. I guess having everything planned out can be a little caotic but living in the moment is so dangerous just because you don't know what's happening next. No worries and no regrets until something bad happens.

I know it's kinda bad to be jealous but really how can't u be when people around you are driven to live by the moment and your to scared to make a mistake. I guess it's true what people say, you live life by making mistakes. Buy reallly, at what cost?? I've done to many mistakes to commit another stupid one, awwww......

It's frustrating to me trying to be different when I just can't even be myself..... Just hope ONE day there is a change that I can see in myself.

"My people are ruined because they don't know what's right and truth." -Hosea 4:6, The Message. No wonder we are in chaos.

It's very simple to understand how the very fact that we don't seek knowledge leads to truly find out what's truth and what's right... "For the lack of knowledge my people perish." wow....