Sometimes I wonder if all this will be worth it at the end. If only I can comprehend why so much pain. They told me there was a price to pay, who knew the price was/is so costly.

So I'm back home, it's interesting and complicated. Sad but Happy at the same time. Been really nervous in returning but I know that whatever happens, it happens. I just wish to be different in every way from now on. No more distractions and implications of giving up. I just wish things would go differently. Today starts day 1 of recuperation. The journey begins...